i slept all the way from bandung to jakarta and listened to the repeated gregory and the hawk - boats and birds and dashboard confessional - bend and not break,i seemed to enjoy the song even i was sleeping.
gotta be honest,i'm tired inside out now (watch my words and phrases,as you can see i'm in my not-in-the-mood mode,but i want to spill whats inside my heart out (yuck,i sounded lame) but it's true)
i was supremely excited at first when i booked the travel and i cant wait till i stepped my nike in the land of crowdness,jakarta.
my travel pooled in jatiwaringin and i took the cab straightly to my grandparent's house in tebet.
but after i hello-ed everybody,my mom (I MISS HER SO MUCH),my grandma (I MISS HER TOO),other relatives and signed in to my msn and had a lil chat with my favourite thing in my hometown,everything's changed,she said i should enjoy jakarta without her...
dont know what to do
dont know what to say,even a word in a text message
dont know what is the best way to consider everything's ok,even pretending
dont know what i feel,i wish "Being Numb For Dummies" book is exist
dont know what is happening and what's going wrong
dont know what is the true meaning of a text message about two days ago,told me that she punched the wall cause she missed me
realy dont know anything now except writing this down and trying to relax (this part is bullshit,i cant even relax)
btw,i thought last night is the worst night of my....month? (not my life,i dont know what will happen in my other future nights) but this night,shocked my bones off.
i realy planned to fill my blog with fun stuffs,crazyness,sillyness,happiness,and other ness,but who knows,sometime something's going wrong,even it's the last thing on earth that you want
thanks for being such a good reader,in the next posts,i'll try to chill myself out,wish me luck =)
i'm sorry =(
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ReplyDeleteit's just a lil' part in relationship, buddy!
thank you =)
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