hit the gas,kill boredoms

Holden Kingswood V8

friends,foods,lover,headed to the beach on a holiday
sunsets,sings,campfire,scent of your hair,i want to stay
stars,moonlights,waves hit the shores make me want to say...
"i wish we can do this everyday"

curly doesnt need poetry and i dont need mama loren

ola chico,ola chica (i learned it from dora) guess what? i've settle things up and now everything is ow to the kay!

i'm so glad that i've passed some problems with curly in a nice way =)

and in this rainbowed-white clouded-birds singing-deers running-squirrel dancing-turtle headspinning-platypus flying-fine morning,i'm soooooo happyyyyy,it's not because i got a nice massage by an old man that keep asking me which one is my mom in an old picture,it's not because grandma's cooking 3 of my favourite dishes,it's not because two policemen came and they got the wrong adress,it's not because i watch oprah show about talented kids,it's because of.......

curly

she texted me "good morning T =)"

and without any mama lorening,i know today will be a very very nice day

smack-downed-heart and stabbed by porcupine's needle

so,here i am,i went back to jakarta (yes,i'm staying in bandung because i gotta go to my 3-minute-walk-from-my-kosan college everyday) this evening by travel.
i slept all the way from bandung to jakarta and listened to the repeated gregory and the hawk - boats and birds and dashboard confessional - bend and not break,i seemed to enjoy the song even i was sleeping.
gotta be honest,i'm tired inside out now (watch my words and phrases,as you can see i'm in my not-in-the-mood mode,but i want to spill whats inside my heart out (yuck,i sounded lame) but it's true)
i was supremely excited at first when i booked the travel and i cant wait till i stepped my nike in the land of crowdness,jakarta.
my travel pooled in jatiwaringin and i took the cab straightly to my grandparent's house in tebet.
but after i hello-ed everybody,my mom (I MISS HER SO MUCH),my grandma (I MISS HER TOO),other relatives and signed in to my msn and had a lil chat with my favourite thing in my hometown,everything's changed,she said i should enjoy jakarta without her...

dont know what to do
dont know what to say,even a word in a text message
dont know what is the best way to consider everything's ok,even pretending
dont know what i feel,i wish "Being Numb For Dummies" book is exist
dont know what is happening and what's going wrong
dont know what is the true meaning of a text message about two days ago,told me that she punched the wall cause she missed me
realy dont know anything now except writing this down and trying to relax (this part is bullshit,i cant even relax)

btw,i thought last night is the worst night of my....month? (not my life,i dont know what will happen in my other future nights) but this night,shocked my bones off.

i realy planned to fill my blog with fun stuffs,crazyness,sillyness,happiness,and other ness,but who knows,sometime something's going wrong,even it's the last thing on earth that you want
thanks for being such a good reader,in the next posts,i'll try to chill myself out,wish me luck =)

confession

for those freaky aloners...

guess what,i'm doin some random googlings and i found these freaky pillows for freaky aloners...

this is for the boys...



and this is for the girls... or boys,if you're gay... because it's a man's arm



your sleep will be so much better... freak!

I FUCKIN WANT THIS

HAMBURGER BED,EVERY MAN'S DREAM... or just me?

before i go back to my kosan...

Before i go back to my kosan,i gotta tell you,in front of me,there's a big guy,and he's look suspicious... but everybody seems to know him very well,i'm not realy sure...
and he's exactly lookslike this! (i drew it very carefully because he's walking around this warnet,and if he see me drawing this picture... i'll be as flat as rotten cookie in grandma's jar)



bye!